"Gospel principles must be engraved in your lives before the crisis, not during. They must be engraved , not in ink, but with fire."
I was thinking about after Dad passed away, and a friend of mine emailed and said Katy-did...(yes she calls me that) now will be the test of your faith. You have been taught your whole life about the treasures of the gospel, and how they can sustain you through anything.....but now comes the REAL TEST. Will you rely on what you know to be true? or will you fall apart and lose your faith? It is one thing to know what we are taught at church, and it is a whole new story to use what you are taught when the time comes. I sometimes catch myself thinking, why am I not falling apart. My dad is not here, I miss him so much. Then I have to remind myself that Dad is still Dad. He is probably still not wearing shoes, he probably still sleeps on the floor, he is probably still using he line....I am not sleeping, I am just resting my eyes! It has been over a year now since Dad passed away...I am still amazed at how comforted I am by the gospel and the teachings that I know to be true. I do not know how anyone could survive losing someone close to you without the knowledge that you will see them again, and that families CAN be TOGETHER FOREVER! Especially us military gals! Our husbands are in danger on a daily basis, and I don't think I could ever do it without the faith that it is in Heavenly Father's hands. I am just so thankful for the comfort, guidance, and direction the gospel gives me especially as I raise the boys with Preston so far away. I don't know how I would do it without the things I have been taught. I watch my mom, and even though I am an adult now...I still watch you mom...you are a great example....always have been...a great strength to my testimony :) I watch you and see that you are okay, and know that if you are okay....I can be okay.
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you know, you should have been a fly on the wall today when i tried to tell aunt sharon about joseph smith and the fact that Heavenly Father restored his authority to the earth through the prophet. i just shake my head at myself - as i tried to explain something that is unexplainable to someone who is doesn't know who the holy ghost is and doesn't have any experience with the spirit . . . i can't describe how frustrated i was -knowing that i was botching it - i just hope that a seed was planted.
cont., i know things in my very being that i simply cannot put into words. it seems like i should be able to but i just couldn't do it. i know that Heavenly Father is there for me - there is no question. And I do wonder why anyone would choose to refuse to believe . . . she kept asking me why i believe. what is the answer. because it is the truth.
i did tell her that she could ask for herself . . . but i felt very inarticulate. i wanted to say - go ask mitt romney these questions . . . even uncle mike told me he had a few doctrinal questions . . . where is dad when ya need him. i just have to trust that somehow, something got through in a positive way.
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