I read mom's blog about the book she is reading, and I thought oh my goodness...she is reading my thoughts. It is so hard when at the end of the day...as I sit here still in my gym clothes...still doing laundry...still remembering all the things I NEEDED to do, but didn't get done today...
I like this part that says...."sometimes we do get lost in our busy lives of nurturing others."...not that this is a bad thing, but I usually end up overdoing it. I hate it when I do that. I always feel guilty for taking time for myself. Even if it is something silly that only takes five minutes. Even as I sit here posting this blog I feel guilty that I am not sitting with Preston "pretending" to enjoy the ridiculous tv show he is watching. HMMM I never did say I was perfect did I! Anyways. I am also feeling guilty because a ward member called and needed to vent and needed a pep talk, and well...I just didn't have it for her...I tried. I really did. Papa passed away on Sunday. I miss him so much, but I really am happy for him. He was 90 years old. He missed mama so much. I love how cute they are together. I am sad for mom mostly. I know I will see papa again, and I am sure Dad is already teaching him the gospel! ROCK ON DAD! I love you papa. I wanted to make it down to corpus christi before you left this earth, if anything just to give you a hug, and hold your hand. I know that you know I love you, and I know you love me ! I love all the amazing memories I have with you, and I love that the boys really KNOW you! They remember Papa and talk about him all the time. Well I am starting to ramble now. I will post some of my favorite pics of papa with the kids. I woke up at 3am last night and couldn't go back to sleep till 430am. I hate that I missed out on that sleep. Pres has been pressuring me to get a new vehicle, but I have studied and studied and researched, and just can't seem to make a decision. Pres finally said babe get a new car when you are ready and you find the PERFECT one. NO PRESSURE! He really does know me well :) I will write more and post more pictures and I promise get better at this blogging thing all over again! I miss it! and the comments especially!
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papa did really enjoy you and your family. glad that you were able to get down there so often. looking forward to seeing all of you. . . have a safe trip. by the way, that's not a book I'm reading - it's a book i want to read. there are lots of those. hugs to all of you - i got hugs from papa, i'll share with you. love mom p.s. family first - but also always remember that service is rarely convenient.
I'm sorry to hear about your papa. I loved reading this post... it's been awhile!
Aaaah. Guilt is evil. Don't give in to it. As one of my favorite authors said, "I don't believe in guilt. And I feel bad about it." (for more info visit the LJW Publishing website: http://www.larryjohnwrightpublishing.com). I read the manuscript through so many times that the "Larryisms" crop up in my mind constantly!
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