words just don't even explain....you want every last second to be special...tell him everything that is in your heart....that he is your absolute world...yet you can't even say the words without bursting into tears....so you just stare at him....trying to memorize his face, and his voice, and talk about anything and everything that won't bring those tears ....so you spend the last few minutes talking about silly things that don't really matter just so you can hear his voice. Watching him walk away feels like someone is standing on your chest....and you can't breathe....even though you tell him that you will be fine...and this is just WHAT WE DO. I came home fully prepared to put away my tears, and put on my "tough face", and both little boys are in tears when they realize dad is already gone. The tough face just doesn't last long when they are crying and saying I want my daddy. Like mom says, sometimes it is okay to cry.....for a minute.....and then you get up and put your tough face back on...
Don't hate me for hiding out. It just takes me a minute to catch my breath again. It feels like someone knocked the wind out of me. I love you Pres.....you are my one and only....forever and ever ....no matter what. :)
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ahhh, girl, you know we love you, though that isn't enough, thank you for letting us share your load...even a little....hugs, kisses and prayers
i agree with mom - it's okay to cry sometimes. call me when you feel like chatting. love you.vagra
my heart hurts for ya. good-byes are the absolute worst. i'll keep you guys in my prayers. you are amazing.
you just can say goodbye and ever ever ever be done saying it . . . remember dad always refuses to say goodbye - he likes "see ya later" better. actually - that is much more comforting and more true. goodbye is just a wrong word i think. see ya later preston . . . we're all waiting for you to take around alaska and protect us from the bears! we're all thinking of you mcdonalds. yep - being strong is the good choice to make.
Hey Katy, I'm thinking of you and your sweet family! You are awesome- of course you will cry a little and hang in there! I love those pictures above too.
thinking you and praying for all of you! love you guys! Be safe Preston!
I miss you guys! Your pics are too cute! Don just got home 2 1/2 months ago and they are already getting ready to go again next march. Sigh! Austin has been going on about Jake for 2 days now. He is so stuck on sending him things. Random things he thinks that Jake might like or somthing that he has made. We made books on thursday and he dedicated his book to Jake lol. it was cute. I miss the comfort that you gave me. I knwo that sounds selfish im sorry. Every night I would look to make sure that you were home and the lights were off. For soem reason that made me feel safe to have some one who believed the same as I do and who was as wonderful of a friend as you are so neer me. I miss that comfort. I miss your boys and seeing them playing on the playground diging holes and running around. I miss seeing them at the buss stop. Man you got me all emotional now! Just so you know you are awesome and I aspire to be more like you and that you are loved and missed!
Thank you so much for the "chocolate" run that morning! I couldnt just come home and go to bed with all the memories still in the house! You have always been there for me, especially during the most hardest times I have had here!! Thank you from the bottom of my heart! It helped so much to be able to talk to someone that was feeling the same way I was at that very moment! I couldnt have done it without you. Love ya girl!!
You are amazing. :) The pictures are great too. Any time you need anything please call. Even if you don't need anything call. :)
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